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only 7teen, too young to say she's been through it all. But old enough to say she's seen a lot, and done a lot. Old enough to be called an older sister. But young enough to be called younger sister too. So who am I? That's for you to find out.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
when everything falls into place, it feels like the world is wonderful.
but, things don't always go the way you want it to be.
that's life, ignorance is bliss, innocence is life.
as we grow older, we often look back and think,
what could have been, and what is now.
we have grown up and been nurtured into the people we are.
the young men and women we may be.
Our parents, teachers and friends we have met along the walk of life assists us in many ways to allow us to mature into who we are.
We have matured into unique individuals, with strong hearts and souls.
With minds and thoughts diverse from any other.
This is our generation, this is us, and this will be what the future will hold.

Losing a friend physically is hard.
Suddenly their presence is gone, the memories you have with them are with you.
But you cannot re-live the memories again.
Losing a friend mentally, what is that?
That's when your friend is alive and their heart is pumping,
yet you cannot find a connection with them.
The bond is gone, the truth is gone and the scars are visible.
I have lost a friend physically and mentally.
I lost my favourite taekwondo instructor around 3 years ago,
he was young, intelligent and the future he had waiting for him was bright.
Everyone saw big things in him, yet a small stupid ignorant mistake made him leave us all.
Until this day, we still miss him.
Mentally, this has only happened recently.
It isn't easy letting go of someone you have had feelings for, for a long time.
But once you have, the pain is released and your heart pumps happier than it has ever before.
You smile more than you use to, and you become more optimistic.
But the pain is still alive, it hurts.
The process of letting go is the hardest, just like anything else.
The thought that they are no more your best friend, no more close to you, hurts your soul and mind.
The scars are always visible to the person getting hurt, and the scars will always be there.
Once the cut has been made, it is very difficult and merely impossible to fall back onto what use to be.

The memories i have with those 2 boys, i cannot thank enough.
They have left me with countless fun times, countless laughter but also times of tears and pain.
To Stephen, you will always be my favourite instructor even though i have left Taekwondo. I know i have let you down, i remembered at your funeral i promised i would strive to get my black belt, but i failed. But if only you were here, if only you could train me like you did, i have no doubt you would push to my full potential unlike the one i had..
To the other person, i will leave you unnamed. I think very much you know who you are. I had so much trust in you, the faith, the respect i had for you was unbelivable. I always told myself, everyone else may hurt me, but you wouldn't. But i guess i was wrong, because you were the one that hurt me the worst, what can i say? I made my own mistakes.


TEE has finally drawn to an end for me.
Soon, i will be aboarding my flight towards Singapore.
From there i will be flying to china, and taking a bus to malaysia.
This month will be a month of reflection.
It will be this time, where i can tell who my real friends are, and who aren't.
As i finally close the chapter to the end of year 12, i slowly open to the beginning pages of the next.
Uncertainty towards my results are scaring me, and the thought that i will not be able to get into the courses, unis i want to always haunt me.
But what can I do? I've tried my best, i've studied.
If i do badly, i can only blame myself for my lack of intelligence..
But i guess, it will this intelligence that will help me survive through life, so i better not discriminate it.



Say goodbye people.
to the past.
to the memories.
to the childish times.
I know i am starting to miss them already.
the days where we would drink at a park, the days where we would walk around hillarys taking photos, the days where we would just hang around whitfords doing utterly.. nothing.
I miss those times, i really do.
The laughter, and the genuine smiles and memories will always live.

I cannot welcome 2008, it will be a brand new year for me.
A totally new one.
I will begin the year like none other.
I want to be different.
I want to make 2008, the most amazing year.
2007 has been pretty good, under all the stress, fights, i have survived.
i can now say, i survived and live through the hardship of high school.
yet, i have also had the privilege to enjoy the fun times of what high school has to bring.




a life is a life.
a memory is a memory.
a song is a song.
a friendship is a friendship.
but add all of those together, they are countless, unforgettable fun times of laughter and joy.




:)
going back to singapore is the thing that has kept me going since TEE began.
i am going to rock it up in asia.
so waiiiit up.

life should be great.
life should be .. what i think it is for that month.
i wonder how different everyone will be,
i want to know.. what dilemma is facing me next.


kiss goodbye. :)