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Started university life again.
Back into routine I guess.
Somehow, I'm glad I'm back at uni.
It seems like.. I have some kind of rhythm back in my life.
sleep, uni, home, study, sleep.
I guess it keeps me going, keeps me steady and firm.
Odd? I think so too.
My units have actually been alright.
ECON1111: Nothing much to say, repeating this unit.
LAWS1104: Actually not a bad uni, just a lot of readings to do! damn!
ACCT1102: Boring lectures, boring; but i need it.
MGMT....: I don't remember the unit code, it's alright I guess. :)

Overall uni hasn't been too bad.
First week back, and I've seen quite a number of faces I hadn't seen during the long break.
So, glad to be back with uni peeps again.
Feels just the same as last sem.

Sigh, I suddenly really miss Malaysia.
For some reason, I have been referring Malaysia as home these days.
I miss home.
I miss my grandmother.
I miss my baby cousin ( okay, no more baby) jerry.
I miss my cousins back home.
I miss the food.
I miss the shopping.
I miss the Malaysian air, dirty&polluted yet pure.
I ... kind of really want to go back now.

Anyway.
Things have been happening.
Shocking news has been given to me.
Let's not talk about it here.

Bascially, this week I plan to eat a lot less than normal.
woo, diet.
But I don't think it's really working.

People are changing too much.
I keep finding new things about people.
I keep.. seeing changes in myself.
Had a really good talk today with mother when she bought me breakfast today.
She had some meaningful things to say.
I actually do adore my mother's existance.
Sure, some days she's annoying; but deep down, she knows I love her I'm sure.
She's always there, and she makes me giggle.
She's just full of fun sometimes, and she likes to check out guys with me.
Weird or what?
And she likes to think she's gangster sometimes, yeeep; i've trained my mother well. :)

I also have some stuff to say to people i guess.
To make up for my ... end-of-semester-entry that never happened.
Thank you to these people for being there for me in sem1. :)
S Li: Met you on day1, and never looked back. :) Practically my twin in so many ways, I wouldn't survive it without you. Thank you so much, you've been the greatest support. We've created a heckload of memories, and i hope more to come. Never leave, because your existance makes me value happiness and the crazy giggling times. :)
W Winaro: I must admit, how I met you is crazy. Through friends of friends.. It doesn't matter. I don't think i would never find a cooler north-train buddy! You're bundles of fun, and thank you for being around, being there and being .. W. :) I must say, I missed you while you were gone! Imagine the 3 months holidays! Please stay around, because you make me feel like smiles can come just by a natural cause.
C Marriott: Year 12 we .. became close. And out of the many people from high school, you are one of the only ones left I can call my best friend. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. But i'm pretty sure without you bro, my life would be pretty dull. You're the one that tells me the truth and isn't afraid to be who you are. You, my dear bro; will never leave because i shall kick you arse if you do, because remember. BFFL. ;);)
T Ang: My ultimate life support whom I cannot live without. You are just always there. No matter how far we are apart, how different we are nor how lazy i am. You are always there to support me and you always give me strenght. Without you, I really am nothing. You are one of those people who I know will always be there for me and will never leave. Because to me, you're just like family; one i will never let go of.

I actually would write more, but my eyes are shutting soon.
And I can't think well.
But those people ^ they mean a lot to me.
They supported me through the way for exams. :)


Malaysia, truly asia.


To B See, if he EVER reads this.
LOOK, I may seem like a traitor, but i clearly am not.
I love Malaysia more than you do. <3
Malaysia is home.
:D



BTW; I'M GETTING A NEW BLOG. :)
SO THIS BLOG WILL BE DEAD.


Also:
WC: Thank you for being one of the most supportive cousins! You're always behind my back and you always have so much faith in me, thank you. :) You're such an awesome person that i am proud to say, I'M ACTUALLY HER FAMILY. :) We grew up together, and look at us now. I remember the young days we use to hang out at popo's house ... I have photos too. My dear, you are amazing. :)
R Tai: You have an amazing soul & voice. You're there for me when I need it the most. You've stuck by me when I've needed someone to talk to. And you are the first person i turn to when i was at my lowest point. You're the one who knew when i cried, why and comforted me. Thank you. I cannot thank you enough. You're my little sister, a person I will never let go, because you mean too much for me to let go young one. :)



wow, i'm really in a thank you mood tonight.
I guess.. i don't say it enough.
So here you readers go, my deepest thoughts & feelings released here.
Hope you enjoy.



12:50am; still wide awake.
i have a freaking 9am lecture too.
I really should be asleep.
My mother will kill me if she knew i was awake.
i wonder what time i will sleep tonight.

& i finished twilight.
1. need to find new book to read. :)



off now.
take care kids.

It's been a great one. :)
Don't think I would have had winter break any other way!
I have had a lot of fun, a lot of memories have been created.
& basically, I've just enjoyed myself.

Say hello to uni now.
Tommorrow is the beginning of sem2.
Maybe meet new people?
Maybe not?

Let's see.

and helping others.
Today, everything seemed to click with me.
I really want to help others around me.
Actually, I want this help people in general.
I don't know why, I actually have never gotten this feeling before.
Hm, I was suppose to join tzi chi youth,
But I'm re-thinking.
I'm thinking of joining world vision youth? :)
It will happen, everyone is probably thinking "pfft; one of yvonne's crazy thoughts."
but no, i will prove to all you children that it WILL happen. :D

uni starts on monday.
I'm not really looking forward to the .. stress again.
But I am looking forward to seeing people and meeting new people. :)
u-dub; sighsigh.
mm, on a happier note.
it's friday, so sat&sun tommorrow! :)
woohoo, i hate weekdays.
love weekends. :D
sat&sun plans:
- dye my hair! ;)
- metros maybe.
- maybe hang out with mazface.
- call tasha.
- prepare for uni.
- must must must talk to jeremy.
- must get new stationary.
- start making reii's present. ;)

So much to do! :D
Oh yes,
I know many of you call ME a camwhore.
Well, congrats to: S&W&V&A&WJ; we have officially made S Tan a camwhore, proud or what?
First it's tz stickie pix, then A.S.I.A. camp, and now woo; a new fresh camwhore.



where do you go when you're lonely?
where do you go when you're blue?
i'll follow you.
when the stars go blue.

approx 4 months till back home.
I can't wait to get home with my grandmother&cousins. :)
aprrox 4 months till back with my best friend tasha.
I can't wait to see you again honeycakes, i miss you tashaaaa;
aprrox 4 months till back to heritage.
I can't wait to see where my ancestors were from.

countdown:
to.. nothing.
wait; seeing hs girls sunday night. :)
so 9 days to dining out with hs girls. :)
i guess?






that is all i have in my world.

Inside my head, things are changing.
Things are not the same.
Even at the end, I won't give up.
I won't give in anymore.
Hiding all my feelings for you, makes me feel like I'm just hiding insecurities.
I will fight and defend, I will keep holding on.
Because I know you will make it through, and somehow I want you to know that i am here for you.
No matter what people are saying about you, I am here for you.
There's nothing another boy could do or say that would ever make you disappear in my heart or mind.
My mind and thoughts are always with you.
No matter how far we both walk in life, my thoughts are with you.
I don't know if we will actually meet again later in life.
I hope we do, but I have a feeling you are going to avoid me for the next years.
But, one day; I will make sure that I will search for you, and I will make you face me.
I might be the very person you're scared to face, but I will make you face me.
No hiding from me, no way boy.
But the time hasn't come yet I think.
Goodbye for now.
I can't erase the past, I can't pretend our past didn't happen.
But I can tell you, if you need me; all you need to do is give me a call and I will be there for you.
I will always miss you;
it's 3 months until a year ago when you came home.
It makes me miss you more than ever.
All I want is you to call me soon; i miss you x987654321`, always.


Oh well! :)
this week will be good and has been great.
monday ( today)- my becbec is finally home from melb/sydney! :) I've missed you!
& seeing J for lunch, haven't seen him .. in a while; so was defs good to catch up boy!
tuesday- seeing my 59-ers, hang out at freo.
& shopping with S. :)
wednesday- full day work; SIGHBORE.
thursday- maybe seeing B :)
friday- full day work; SIGHBORE.
saturday- morning half shift work.
& maybe metros at night?
sunday- relax before uni starts man.


ciao for now kids. :)

Firstly, I apologize for not blogging for such a long time.
So now my faithful readers, I am about to blog about my winter break, that has not yet ended.
This holidays has brought me a lot of joys, happiness and memories that will last a lifetime.
But now, I shall blog about the very first thing that came up in the holidays. :)
ASIA CAMP.
What happened at ASIA camp, stays at ASIA camp.
But in short.
What S&V learnt at camp:
1. never steal people's things! SORRY!!
2. never go drinking too much.
3. eat before you know you're gonna drink, and i think amelia said it " should eat more, so if you wanna puke at least you've got something to puke." or something along those lines.
4. V likes to count after some alcohol intake.
5. S&V can be like an old couple, male&female towels; :P
Probably more to come, but hey.
Day1: -depart from u-dub
- get lunch/buy groceries/alcohol from bunbury.
- arrive at resort/get to villas/move villas if wanted. :)
-let's play some circle of death.
- get back to villa/giggle like hell/sleep until 6:43pm.
- go to pres for dinner.
- drink some more at gan's villa.
- BONDING TIME WITH FELLOW 59ERS.
Day 2: ( the day of... sigh.)
- cook yummy breakfast.
-spa.
- amazing race, we came second last ==''
- cook dinner, YUM! :) spag&meatballs.
- let's go drink/play circle of death.
- let's go... let's just stop here thanks.
was a really good night though!
Day3: -wake up early.
- cook breakfast.
- A&WJ bake cookie.
- give D Tan a makeover ;)
- go to other villa to present birthday cookie.
- S&V make jelly.
- bum around our neightbour villa.
- sleeeeep.
- missed ASIA olympics.
- spa.
-dinner.
- off to different villas.
- WJ&V&S Chu&S Tan off to pretty resort to camerawhore.
- meeting at pres.
-SLEEEP.
Day 4: nothing spesh.
because... GOING HOME! :(

Bascially, thank you to villa 59-ers for looking after me when I really needed it.
I wouldn't have had that much fun if it wasn't for you kids. :) <3>Stef Li, Wei Jia, Amelia, Stan, Sam & David.
Also, thanks to S for inviting meeee. :D
I don't think i've ever been to a camp, as much fun as this one. Truly, a good camp!
To people who may get invited to go next year, DON'T FREAKING MISS IT. :)
A 3 nights 4 days to never be forgotten.
Mi Goreng @ 1am, man i freaking miss it.




Of course, holidays are never complete with some fun hang out times. :)
I have seen a number of people this break, they include:
S, K Hyunh, B, D, K, Q, M & some others. :)
Had a great time, and have taken more & more tz photos to add to my collection!
It is these moments that make me treasure friendship and happiness!
What would I do without you kids?

Results are out guys.
Everyone knows.
I did bad okay?
Gotta re-do two FREAKING units.
No more questions asked please, basically.

But .. I've thought it through, nothing much I can do about it.
So gotta sit back, and i guess, maybe i can meet MORE people?
Who knows, who knows? Hopefully.
Sem2 starts out soon.
Kinda wanting uni to start soon so we can all see people, but on another view.
I don't want uni to start because i'm enjoying my break.
Winter's hitting me.
I'm hating the cold. :(
Now, all I want is a hot chocolate.


I promise to blog more often from now on. :D
I have more time on my hands now.
One more week of holidays; seem so soon.

Thank you to everyone for supporting me all through sem1 . :)

I wish the best of luck to all for sem2. :D

To reii: Nothing should get in the way of our futures, we should wipe our tears dry; forget those boys and walk the road cheerfully with no pain. :) love you girl.


checklist for remaining holiday left:
Priority list.
1. Villa 59 gathering.
2. Shopping.
3. Meet Hanny.
4. Fix wireless.
5. Lunch with gayson. XP lucky last.


So yup! :D
I guess it's time for me to turn in.
I shall go off now.
Ciao my readers, please feel free to tag. :)

The last time I will ever blog in this house.
I'm kinda sad to leave this place, I spent like 10 years of my life here.
I sat outside, at the backyard last night.
Thinking back, 13th birthday party- chucking ice into neighbour's gardens with the boys.
- Crazily running around chasing them.
Sigh, also growing up with Jun in my house, all those years of memories bro.
Crying in a corner.
Doing chores around this house.
Seeing people get lost because our house has so many doors.
Our driveway- it's just so unique. XP
I will miss this place.
So much memories.
So much laughter.
Yet also, so much tears.
1st July 2008; 12:15pm.
The house will officially not be ours anymore.
The house full of my childhood memories, I bid you my final goodbyes.

I will always miss you.

On a happier note,
I have finished exams.
Which means:
ASIA CAMP.
SHOPPING.
WORK. =X
FUNFUN. :D

Yay! :)

My end of sem blog will be updated soon. :)

Maybe we will meet again.
And when we do, we will hug like we use to.
Talk like we use to, joke like the old days.
I remember walking the journey with you two years ago.
Thinking about it, I put way too much reliance onto you.
I remember sitting in my bed, waiting for your e-mail.
And when I did receive it, I would smile to myself.
That would make me contented.
Your e-mail which consisted of, good morning; good night.
Was what started and concluded my days.
Getting my birthday present from you in the mail, made my heart skip a beat.
Video-calling you made my heart beat that little bit faster.
Hearing your voice made me smile a little too much.
Yet, today; as i type this at 12:40 on a cold morning,
You are no longer there to e-mail me.
to support me.
to give me the support i need to keep me sane.
to call me when i really need you.
to calm me down when i'm upset.
to tell me jokes to de-stress me.
I remember your existance for 3 years, i took it for granted.
Yet today, I seem to want that feeling back again.

Fumi, I don't know if you will ever read this.
I hope you do, no matter where you are.
I guess, i have thought things out.
It all seemed to click; just like that.
Fumi; you'll always be my favourite boy.
You will always live in my heart, no matter how far in life I will walk.
You brought me too much happiness, too much that words can't explain.
I admit you let me down too much;
But I don't care anymore.
Because all I want is you to come back.
To be that same boy that e-mailed every morning consecutively for a year.
To be my potato kid who videocalled me and remembered my birthday and sent me random photos.

My memories with you are everlasting.
When will you think of coming home?
Where's that promise that you will be here for my 18th?
I guess, that just will never happen.
But I miss you boy.